I had a few minutes family and thought I would share some things that I have been thinking about and dealing with in my life. I have had a few things (as with anyone) going on that had not been going in the right direction, that is until this very moment. Family, I am changing but for the better and I finally feel that with each breath I take I am birthing this incredible being into existence. I know what childbirth is like and though I am not physically pregnant nor bowed over in excruciating labor pains, I am preparing to deliver a new life into the world and have allowed this mental being to travel down the birth canal known as life. See this wonderful God-loved creation I am referring to is me.
I now reside in Arkansas and while this has been a big transition for me, it is one that I am finally understanding and allowing to unfold. I am now a stay at home mom (first time in my life-before that I worked full-time jobs) and a student finishing my bachelors degree. I have realized that life is not about the house I live in nor the car I drive. It is not about the positions held or the education attained. It is not even about the money in our bank accounts. It is about love and living.
I am on this path of learning to garden and to live a sustainable life but in actuality I am learning to love and live. I thought I was doing those things until I took the time to evaluate what those words mean. Now that I am older I realize the love that my parents had for me, and I pray everyday that I show my children that love and more. The love that my mom showed to me had nothing to do with the clothes on my back, the food that she prepared, whether the bills were paid. It made no difference what was going on behind the scenes with my parents marriage. The love that she showed me was powerful, so much so that if I close my eyes I can remember such things as the beautiful song she used to sing to me and my siblings… “underneath the starry sky, just before I close my eyes, I will lift my voice…… And I say thank you Lord, ……..” Oh yes family, now that….is love. I just want to take the time out to say that it is that kind of love that sustains me today. Thank you Mom. The love that flows through me comes from my dad coming home from working a long shift at night and him seeing me laying on the living room floor and I would play sleep just so he could pick me up to tuck me in bed. Thank you Dad! These are the memories that I draw from, this is the love that gives me strength to live an amazing life.
I am on a mission to give my children that love more now than ever before. This is why I want plenty of land, why I am gardening, why I am living sustainably. This is why I am learning to make things from scratch, eating healthier, being debt free. I want these things to be instilled in my children. I want to leave them a legacy. I want that legacy to be rooted and grounded in love. I want it to be surrounded with life. I want them to do all the things that they want to do but also know that if they ever need to they will always have something to fall back on. This transformation is not just for me. It is for my children, and my children’s children,and theirs. So when my great, great grandchildren think back on all that they are doing they can also remember the love and life that had been passed on to them. I know this is a little bit off the beaten path but I just wanted to share.
Much Love family 
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